Forever Alone...........

Yeah... You just can do anything you! I will not say anything... just do what you, i won't say a thing.. Expect for you know what.... Then i will just be a ghost to you... Or just a shadow! Yeah everyone is chasing for you... But still i feel like we are already far apart... And you said you dun change... Yeah right... You dun noticed it.. You are willing to change your looks, as before I am loving you.. For what to change your looks? Not to look good?

Dun worry, I am preparing myself for the worst.... You have many secret admirer who send you flowers and such... And you dun check your IG acct, but I guess you still have the IG Message... You are messaging them... Who knows... I will think what I want... Seriously all the reasons that you gives me, am doubting it... You going out.... Just have fun!

Just f*** anyone you want..! As now am still feeling alone.. I think I will be FOREVER ALONE... I was better before, but now am getting worst and worst...

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Hurmmmmmm...... I guess no one reads my blog... Nvm.. At least i can scream all i want!!!!! Hahaha... I guess you think this blog is sexual thing..

Coz of the name.. Huh....

Suicide Method....

Please anyone can suggest me away to die ibstantly with they having a chance to resuscitate us back?

Please guy! Anyone who read this....

In PAIN

I feels like my body now against me... My backache is getting worst.... I feel so much pain... What can I do? I can afford to go to the clinic... What a sad life I have...

The pain is hurting me... As I walk, standing, bending and even sleeping....

Pain oh Pain... Please take me away with you.....

How I feel actually.....

Selfish...

People do tend to be selfish.... When we asked them for help, they ignore ... But when they want help, urrrrgggghhhhh we HAVE to do it... WTF!!!! You can do it but when we stated our reason still they said we are selfish and making faces towards us... When they don't do it it is okay...

I have a back pain, asking them for help, they said wait wait, i am just asking them to paste the pad at the pain... But suddenly wanna use my stuff, they urged me as i said i will retreat to my room coz i need to used it making faces.... FUCK!

And I still remember, i only had RM6 in my wallet left, and they don't have money simply asked for it and never said will payback... Even if you are my sibling money is still money... Yeah one time they have no more money and it is just the beginning of the month, asking me for money, it is like i am the bank to them, yeah I gave them RM400 and that was my expenses money till end of the month... Then i became broke... Somewhere at the middle of the month I noticed they received money, do they give me back the 400, HELL NO!!!!!!

I saw them buying this and that... But my wallet was empty as i gave them the money.. Do they ever think abt me? HELL NO!!!! If I go out, I usually order take away as thinking whether they ate or not... But for them, they never think like that... Wht they gave me is the leftover of what they ate... So sad right my life....

I Am Not Happy

I am crying almost every day.... Thinking of what had happened to me recently from past month. It's like you left me hanging without a rope. But do you remember your promises to me? Do you still remember all of it? I don't need to remind it at all as you made that promises to me without I forced you in anyway possible... But look what happened now? I am crying... Every single day?

What did i done wrong? Please tell me! But whenever I asked, you said them! Them! Them! This is how you sacrifice? Should I be selfish? Am I selfish enough? In starting of our relationship you said you will love me only and no one else... But now, you ask me to find some else and be happy... And you said if you find some else you will still be with me? How can this happened? Have I not interest you anymore?

What am I to you? Just to pleasure your need for love that you cannot get from Them? What am i actually? Now i am so fucking weak! I am not willing to live my life any more... You bring me to suspicion that you have someone else... But when I asked you, the answer is always NO. Just tell me the truth... Did you really find a new love? If yes, I will back off and just walk away like a shadow... You will never hear nor see me at all anymore... I just cannot take it...

I feel pain in my heart. I dunno why but recently my chest do have pain. I didn't tell you. Coz you said you always be worried of me... I have countless sleepless night... You dunno abt that too.. Even like this i still thinking of you, tries not to make you worried abt me.

Your promises... Where is it now? You know I hate liars! Do not promise me something you can't! If you hate me that much just leave me if that will make you happy and you won't see me anymore... Just like we didn't know each other... You made me a weakling already!